February 2011
I really don't give a shit but you can keep...
Those scrubby days
So today was just another scrubby day for me. I haven’t had one day in the past couple weeks where I’m not scrubby. I guess I’m just lazy and tired of waking up in the morning and having this hecka low self esteem. Sometimes I just love being comfortable at school. Thats why I wear Crewnecks, sweatshirts, and Vans every day. I’m never in the mood for a nice outfit. Its not...
vivian-thao-doan asked: Haha, yeah really. :)
aw really? Funny story, i feel the same way too [:
Anonymous asked: I think you're beautiful.
I’ve never been this tired. I’m having that feeling like when you wake up in the morning at 6AM. My eyes are so droopy and my brain is fried. It’s amazing how being around people can make me smile. Its when I’m not around them that I start to have this altar ego; where I feel hopeless, upset, tired, and depressed all the time outside of school. I wish I could have one self...
013111
1st - On Demand writing test -_-” First one to finish ;p Hecka back aches and cramps -_— Did filing for Collier and chilled with Nika, Jazelle, & Raanan.
Nutrition - David wasn’t hanging out with me ]: Chilled with Jaleen and Dricelle.
2nd - Ran a lap, Chilled with Alex and Ingreed [; Gosh Alex, why do you HAVE to be so damn cute? dammit. took height and weight. I’m...
January 2011
karenagra:
I’ll Still Try.
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You made me stronger
You were the one that made me strong. You loved me, dumped me, loved me, and then dumped me. You were the cause of all my heart ache and tears. You made me feel worthless and used. I felt like hurting you the way you hurt me.
But, you know, you made me stronger.
You caused me to actually feel something,
You made me learn from my mistakes and be more independent. I loved you. But the way you...
Confessions.
I have to confess, nothing is the same anymore. Everything is just falling apart, bit by bit. I need to find another resort, or else I’ll be losing everything and having nothing to turn to. I need a back up plan. Because once I lose you, I lose myself. I need to find a way to get closer to you. I miss you. And I don’t know how much more of this I can take.
I need to find happiness.
...
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Benefits of being a girl:
Sometimes I think of what would happen if everyone that loves me, left me.
If they would ever get tired of me.
Or just find new people.
Sometimes I believe that it’s already happened.
But I would always remind myself that they came into my life for a reason.
And for them to leave, would be simply ridiculous.
forealsryan:
Without my friends, I wouldn’t have the courage to do a lot of things.
I bet it’s the same for them as well. We’re all scared to try new things by ourselves.
But being together as a group, it feels more safe. It’s like, if this happens to me, it will happen to them as well. It feels like there are people to back me up.
I just don’t seem to be afraid when I am around them. But...
I hate it when someone steps into your life....
I changed
I’m quieter
I’m meaner
I’m annoying
I’m dumber
I’m different
It kills me to say that I have changed. This damn school that I go to has gotten the best of me and now I’m someone no one really likes. I’m boring. I need to get away and regain my old self. It’s stupid how I let people influence me in a bad way. I hate when this happens because I...
Bullshit.
It sucks when I realize that all of my relationships with people were just bullshit. All of them. There wasn’t one single relationship where we got along and had a long lasting relationship. You know, like one of those relationships where you have bracelets, pictures, and their sweater. bullshit. Come on now, I hate realizing that I never had any of that. I sometimes feel like an experiment....
I love:
Feeling comfortable
Smelling good
Having no medical issues (rarely)
Losing weight
Running
Music
When a guy holds a door for me
My iPod
Being home alone
Little Kids
Getting A’s
Having a teacher that likes me
Dancing
Shoes
Working hard to master a large goal of mine
Good moments with my parents
Aztec Games
Sports
Laughing
Those good days (=
Shodid
Old group <3
...
You were my love and my life. You made me get this indescribable feeling of completeness and pureness. I couldn’t go a day without seeing or hearing your voice. I wanted you in my arms every night and give the most passionate kiss. I wanted you to love me back. I wanted you to feel the same way I did. And you sent of so many signs that put me in the direction of losing hope and thinking...
Stayed home
today I stayed home because I’m having medical issues that I really don’t want to mention. But yeah, I’m really pissed because I have an Algebra Test today -_-” But hey, on the bright side, I had a dream about Megan Fox. [;
012611
1st - Read articles & talked about teenage romance -_-“
Nutrition - ajsbdusob >;/
2nd - Dynamic stretching with Mar, Chelsea, & Patricia. Push ups & sit ups. Walked around with Mar while Patricia played football AHA. ELP & yeah.
Lunch - ahfnodaffd >;/
3rd - Didn’t learn anything once again. Sat and stared and talked with Amy, Taylor, Mia, Gillian, Kyla, Steven...
thank you love [: This means alot to me, js.
Self esteem
My self esteem has been quite low these past couple days. I feel fat and gigantic. I feel ugly and asfnaol. I hate when this happens. This happened to me last year around this time and I started working out and nothing worked.
Maybe I’ll just hit the gym more often. boo.
When random people say hi to me when I'm walking...
Expectations:
Reality:
I hate drifting away from people I used to be...
56831:
I hate the fact that I used to talk to certain people everyday and now we barely talk. We just both started hanging out with different people and all of a sudden, it was like we never even knew each other. Is it too much to say I miss you?
cuhrishchun:
Man if I can learn this on the...
I miss you, and I don’t know how many more days I can take without you. Seeing him with you makes my heart crush and tear apart into pieces.
Every picture you upload makes me go crazy inside and I swear, one day, those butterflies are just gonna make my stomach explode.
I like you…
so much; you wouldn’t even understand.
I can't even explain how I feel about you
I can’t believe I feel this way about you. Everything about you is just different from what everybody else has. Your smile is amazing and I’ve liked you since day 01, but never wanted to admit it. I tried running away from my feelings for you, but they kept chasing me and never leaving me alone.
Its like everytime I see your face or hear your voice, all these butterflies magically...
xrcuhruz:
You > My pride.
ohitsashley:
things are different between us. it’s like i don’t know you anymore. we used to talk about everything and anything at all. now, it’s like you hide the littlest things from me. i’m not understanding what’s going on between us and what’s causing you to act this way. why can’t things be the same? better yet, why can’t things get better like we promised? i hate what you’ve turned into.
